I’m not someone who asks for signs very often because I don’t think that signs are given that easily. I feel like signs usually come when you’re not asking or even looking for them. So when these signs show up I have to take action.
Last year was a terrible year and I’ve been hiding out for the past several months not wanting to really look at my future or make long term plans because most of them fell apart before I could even start them.
So a few weeks ago my new supervisor (my previous supervisor was offered a better position in another city and state) asked me, “What do you want to do?” At first, I didn’t understand what he was asking me but then he clarified and I was put on the spot.
I talked about my situation a little (I don’t know him well enough to tell him the details) and he offered encouragement.
His question made me think.
I’ve never been one to not have a project or a goal of some sort. I’ve always been doing something to improve my mind, body, and life. The previous year kept me from doing that and quite frankly I’m tired of it. I like to be moving and doing but I’ve been so paralyzed by the fear of disappointment and having to cancel my plans that I’d given up on goals. So, asking me, “What do you want to do” had me stymied.
After we talked about a few options –including getting a degree in Clinical Mental Health to be a counselor—I went back to my office to think about our discussion on my own. I examined some of the ideas I’d had about my future trying to decide if I really wanted to change my course and try a new one or continue on my journey. Did I really want to be a counselor or was I just looking for something to do? Or was I burnt out on this road and needed to explore new paths? I wasn’t sure.
The next day I went to a one day conference and got my second sign. The first session I went to was about making your dreams a reality. The speaker a woman named Elaine Penn was amazing. She gave some great tips on how to set about reaching our aspirations.