Lately, I’ve missed writing.
I used to write all the time.
Hell, I got a master’s degree in English with an emphasis in creative nonfiction
but the experience and the “constructive” criticism I made me doubt myself. I decided
I wasn’t really a good writer. So, I
stopped taking it seriously. I stopped
looking for contests and paying attention to how other authors wrote. I kept writing but I didn’t care. It was just something I did until I didn’t.
But lately, I’ve felt this overwhelming desire to write
again.
So, I decided to resurrect my old blog from about 7 years. It took me about 30 minutes to figure out
what Gmail address I’d used and another 30 to get to the blog. When I saw it, I was kind of shocked because –
why did it look like I was a cosmetics influencer when my blogs had nothing to
do with makeup? It felt like looking at
an old diary. Back then, I was desperate
to contribute and be seen and validated.
I wanted to be part of the group of creative voices I heard, read, and
watched but I got too focused on what the blog looked like versus what I
said because again I didn’t really care what I wrote. Looking at the blog, I remember being exhausted
by the decorating and having no energy to put into words.
So, I’m starting over.
I’m not going to worry about background and font colors or what colors a
button changes to when you click on it (although I did change the theme to something
more me and less “buy this foundation”).
I’m just going to write. Obviously,
I’m going to edit and probably have someone review my writing for grammar and
spelling. So, if something slips by it’s
not my fault. Even if it is, it’s my
editors.
Here’s what to expect – random thoughts and words. There’s no theme to my blog. It’s just me sharing insight and thoughts on
whatever comes to my ADHD mind to share.
I might write about a sermon from church or share a recipe and pictures
of something I’ve cooked or baked. I
might vent about work, friends, family. I’ll
definitely post about my cats and dog. I
just want to share and be part of the writing community again. I miss it.
Honestly, I’m not even sure if I’m actually going to post
this. I might just act like a turtle and
stick my head back in my shell. I mean,
my shell is pretty nice – internet, TV, two cats, a dog, and valet trash pickup.
